Ever since I started preschool, I’ve been so painfully shy. I was a crazy, talkative kid until you threw me in a room with a bunch of strangers. Who else can relate!? Luckily, I participated in sports because that’s where I was able to make most of my friends! And as odd as it sounds, this introvert was a cheerleader! No idea what I was thinking haha!
My picture today was taken by the river on my parents farm which was my refuge when I felt overwhelmed in high school. This is where I felt the most comfortable, by myself where I couldn’t feel the judgement of the world. (I do this today by taking naps hahaha)
My shyness has always been a struggle for me. In class I remember the teachers asking what the answer was, and even though I knew it and I wanted so bad to say the answer, I never got the strength to raise my hand.
I’m a very happy person, and I try to show it as often as I can, but this face has gotten me in a lot of trouble. When I’m in a new social environment, a lot of times I freeze up. Not because I’m not enjoying myself, or I don’t like you. I’m just scared to death I’ll say something wrong. I overanalyze every situation, and while I’m busy trying to figure out how not to look like an idiot, people around me just see me as angry.
I’m lightyears better than I was in school, but I constantly struggle putting myself out there. (Hence why these blogs are so hard) But I have to say, every single time I’ve stepped outside my comfort zone, something beautiful has happened. I will always feel awkward, and my stomach will always be full of butterflies, but I made a promise to myself to make these changes. My life is worth more than hiding from this world, and so is yours.
So if you’re a fellow introvert, please listen to this advice.
Put yourself out there. Don’t overthink it, just do it.
You will not always feel comfortable. At first, you will come home and analyze the situation until you make yourself sick. But it gets easier every step you take. I’ve met so many amazing people, but if I ran away to the river every time I felt overwhelmed, I wouldn’t have built those relationships. Push away all those fears and feelings that you are not worthy, and take that leap. I’ve been able to be a light in others lives, and I’ve been blessed by so many people.
So if you’re a fellow introvert, challenge yourself to step out of your comfort zone. Whether its joining that exercise class you’ve been eyeing, posting that photo of yourself that you love but are afraid what others will think, or reaching out to that someone you’ve been avoiding.
My hope from this post is that you will be able to see past my shyness and see the real me. And hopefully my unfortunate case of RBF will never offend you!
Thank you for stopping by for another #gettingtoknowcrystin post. I appreciate anyone who is willing to take the time to visit my blog and get to know me. Drop by my contact page if you want to talk!